I haven't liked anyone this much in two years.

Two years. Crazy? I don't know. I live in a smallish town. I mean, we have this Apple Blossom Festival every year, and we get out of school because of it. My one friend moved from a big city to here and was like, "I thought town holidays only happened in movies." Lmao. Anyways, I'm off topic. I live in a small, somewhat southern town, so there aren't a lot of great guys here. A lot of them try to act 'gangster', but really, why? Anyways. So, my ex lived in North Carolina, small town, and let me say this, he was hot. If you went by looks, I was so out of his league. But Valentine's Day, almost two years ago, he broke up with me because he was gay. No problem. Moved on. But I've never really liked any guys since then because they're just so cocky and annoying, or they did drugs. *No offense to anyone who does, I just don't wanna date someone who does. Anyways. So I'm surprised I like that boy J. We've talked since 8th grade, before my ex and I even met. I used to have a crush on J in 8th grade. But now, I like him again, except this time, he's the one who started the whole thing. He's nice, sweet, funny, smart, cute, and he doesn't wanna pressure me into anything I'm not comfortable with. Which, is a good thing for him because if he tried anything I didn't want I would personally kick his ass and so would two of my cousins. About like my one cousin, who's like a big brother to me, said if we had sex or thought about it, he was going to have a little talk with J. This is why I love him, haha.

But really. He thinks I'm pretty, funny, smart, sweet, and I make him smile. He makes me laugh and smile. I mean, almost every time I get a message from him I'm smiling. During school, my friends'll see me smile at my phone and they'll know who I'm texting. Best thing? He honestly doesn't care about me answering the door in my pajamas when he comes over. Really. I don't have to change who I am around him. I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not. It's easy.

Like last night. I had texted him around 4, and he texted me back around 7, right after I woke up from a nap. This was the conversation:
Me-"So what are you up to? (:"
Him-"Wishing I was with you (;"
Me-"Haha(: I just woke up from a nap, about to make dinner."
Him-"Was I in your dreams? (;"
Me-"Haha, like I've said before, you're crazy (:"
Him-"Crazy for you (;"

I can't even. I was trying to make dinner and I couldn't stop smiling about it. Just...I need to stop before I keep rambling.