If no one told you this today, let me be the first to say: You're Beautiful.

(Bad at wording my feelings.)
You all are. I just wanted to put this small blog up saying thins because I have this one friend.

Yesterday was going fine. We was joking around, laughing and we started play wrestling in the library acting like fools. Then I saw IT. The long red cut going across her wrist. She saw me look at her crazy and quickly try to hid it back under her sweater. It killed me to know that ANOTHER one of my friends is finding themselves in self harm. I asked her why and she burst in tears. I hugged her and we went for a walk outside.We talked and I'm not going to say much about but she's hurting. I showed her my arm and told her how he never wants to get this far. I told her everything. How it's addicting, how if her parents catch her, they will think she's crazy. I was trying to help her right then and there before it gets worst. I was telling her to stop now while it's not a habit yet. She let me draw a butterfly on her arm with my name on it. I felt what it felt when I hurt others when they saw my arm again. I can't have the people I'm around, falling in the same steps as me. I can't have that. So here's to her, me, and anyone else who needs to hear this:

You're fucking beautiful. Don't you ever dare forget that. You're worth something. Know that whatever you strive to be when you get older, go for it. Don't let others push your head under the water. You're all so fucking strong so don't tell me you're not. Because if you weren't strong, you wouldn't be here. Walk on this earth, still breathing. Depress? Want to cut? Find something better than a blade as your outlet. Music, writing, typing, talking to others, the sims game, movies, anything. Anything is better than hurting yourself. I know it's hard to stop,I know it's hard to think so negative about things but smile. Find the smallest thing that make you pause and smile and gives you that moment to yourself. For me, I look up at the sky in the cold/warmish weather and watch the sky chance color. Haha, I came down from depression or the urges like now, with my window open to let the cold breeze in my room. What ever it is, do it to distract yourself from self inflicting. "In your deepest pain,In your weakest hour, In your darkest night, You are lovely"~Ariel Bloomer.

I have had too many scares over this month. I almost lost several friends in suicide and i't's scary as fuck. I had a few tumblr friends try to commit and some people on here. Listen to me, internet friend, my friends, or whom ever is reading this, I care so much for you all. I can't lose a friend, online or the ones next to me.

Stay beautiful and keep rocking <3