The life of a sonority girl

In many cases you are going to feel claustrophobic. Many people will be against you and others will become more a more fighting you. I want to cry and fight this feeling that I have against my wonderful sorority but I can not. I feel that every time that I am up I fall right back down. I want to just forget everything and leave, but I can not because this is my baby and my love. It is difficult when many people are fighting back. I want to cry shout and scream but I can not. I want to relax in God but it seems the devil keeps fighting against me and wanting me to hate my baby and my love. I know not many people like me in the house, but at the same time they do. Do I need to focus on the people who are positive and more for me rather than against me? I believe I should. I kind of want to go home tonight and relax, but I can not. I do not really know what to do......