Life goes on

My life from birth was calm, silent and simple. Now has I grew up, it became more difficult, hard, and sad almost every single day. I usualy have a smile on my face if i see something interesting, or my friends, making me laugh in a way that I never laugh before. But during those times, I have been depress, heartbroken, less confident and more quiet. I always see a future ahead of me, but usually is just point blank that I don't know what to do with myself, if i ever got someone to love, if I had a better life, or maybe something else that I can't quite put my finger on. In reality, life is tough, life is crucial, life is nothing what you see in a book or movie, its something you live in. Do you agree on that, If not than your still in your fantasie life.