How to feel okay with this?

I'm so...I don't even know how to feel right now. I'm completely lost and devastated. I find it hard to breathe knowing that there's nothing we can do anymore. I really don't know what to do.

Today, my beloved grandmother passed away. She had been battling cancer for less than a year and though her battle was short...she fought it like a champ. I'm so upset that she's gone, but I'm at peace that she is no longer hurting and she's finally with my cousin, Brett.

I'm just...lost. She was my hero. She loved me through all my flaws and everything. She was the one person who supported my dream of writing a book...and that's what I was doing. I promised her that I would finish my first novel and read it to her when it was done...but I broke that promise because I didn't finish it in time. But I will finish it and I will do it not only for me, but for her too.

I love you, grandma. Rest in peace. <3
August 12th, 2013 at 10:30pm