Love Sucks Part 2

Well, I just don't know. I'm feeling pretty confused. Dear god, I never become like this towards other guys.

This guuy, he is just so fucking different. I keep talking off Valerie's ear off with my stories about him, and even I'm irritating my self. Oh my fucking god, it is just so hard.

I usually just let everything like this slide but Idk. My old crush (this is a different guy) now is flirting with me, and being all touchy and his friends like me, but I only want guuy, let's make up a name for him, uh Bill.

I don't know what I ate, or what perfume I recently bought that caused all these guys to flirt with me or whatever but yeah they are, this doesn't usually happen though. Just saying.

So yes, Bill. He's the only one I want. It's kinda weird because one of my old crush's friends is trying to flirt with me, he is cool and everything, but just as a friend.

Although, I have to say. He is the cheesiest guy ever.

I mean, once, he took my hand and put it on his chest and asked me to feel his heart.

HE FUCKING ASKED ME TO FEEL HIS HEART, I MEAN LIKE WTF.

And he keeps singing to me, THIS IS NOT GLEE WTF ARE U ON.

And I'm just like, "PLEEEEAASEE STOP".

Well, not really. I just sorta nodded and smiled awkwardly.

Dear god, people today though.

It's kinda funny though, how the one you want isn't who you get. Bill is very special, but if nothing happens soon, I think I'm moving on. I love him. I always will, but I'm not gonna live like this anymore. I can't live on hope anymore. It's gonna be kinda hard though because I talk to him every fucking day, but I need to. Sigh. Oh what a life.

LotsaLoveandShitXOXOXO