do virgos worry too much?/too young to have birthday blues?/ Happy Birthday Mikey

okay so today's Mr. Michael James Way's 27th birthday. -sigh- we're growing up so fast...because next monday, it'll be my turn to celebrate/uncelebrate the day when i came into this world. (i'm turning 19 btw) i'm having some 'pre-birthday blues' lately...because, a. i'm gonna be 19 b. i'm just stressed so i feel old (but luckily it doesnt show physically) c. i'm just plain paranoid and worrisome! it's not that i regret the day when i came to be, heck i do love life! and i'm not 'emo' about it it's just that maybe i'm just afraid to be out of my parents hair and live independently. I'm in college but i still live with my parents and it's pretty normal because that is the culture here in the Philippines. Maybe i'm just afraid of working and handle a crapload of commitments because the more i think of it, it just gives me the reason to be afraid of getting older.

Oh well, this is life. Beauty products and botox may 'help' reverse the aging process but it can't reverse your ability to view life ahead. Meaning if you feel old then maybe, it'll somehow show physically or mentally but if you feel otherwise, you'll feel good about yourself. As for me, i still feel....me. nothing else. All i know is for the next 5 months i'll still be busy in my college life, and next year i will leave this country and venture off to the US to have my first real on the job training. That is where i have my first taste of total independence.

They say age is just a number. I really find it ridiculous that some people lie about their age. I remember an interview with Gerard and Frank when Gerard was asked about turning 30 and he was really excited about it and i remembered what he said: "30 is the new 20" and Frank butted in, "yeah, for trees!" i know Frank was being a total goof ball and people shouldn't be offended about age jokes. Gerard was being realistic and he gratefully accepted life's natural process. As for Frank, well he's just too darn cute! lol

On turning 19, i can say that it's a mixed feeling. Just like the way i felt when i turned 18 last year. I'm happy and thankful for having another year of my life but i just can't help but to think about the future. Yep, future sometimes scares me. Will i be who i wanted to be or not? Will i get a good and stable job? The least thing that i can do is focus the present things so that i could succeed in the future. I'll just set aside my age issues for now and study, study, study! as for me and Mikey....September's our month, baby! lol XD