Giving college another try

I got an email basically reminding me that I'm on academic probation (as if I’ve forgotten) this semester since I freaked out and broke down and failed all of my classes last spring and decided not to go back in the fall. So yeah now I'm freaking out again because it’s like if you don’t meet the standards this time you won’t be able to go back to college again It’s so threatening and I'm scared and sad and my friend laughed when I told her.

I gonna take less classes so I don't stress myself out anymore. And I'm going to try new campuses. Also later classes of course (Man was 9am a dumb idea last time). Yeah might be getting antidepressants as well so that might help too.

The beginning of 2013 was just not a good place for me. And I may not be better but this semester off gave me time to heal and figure out what who I want to be and find the courage to become that person. I even found my love for writing again. I don't even remember that last time I wrote so much. I have so many plans for the new year and I seriously can't wait :)