this house is so miserable

i'm so fucking miserable. i have a huge headache, my thighs are fat as fuck, im stressed with schoolwork, my two-timing/lying/cheating/incestuous father is lying around like he's miserable, like he's depressed and i should be the one to comfort him despite the fact that he's the one who ruined fucking everything

and i just want to die again -- i want to fucking die. its come to the point that schoolwork doesnt even matter, eating doesnt matter, nothing fucking matters

living in this house is so fucking miserable and i cant take it anymore im going insane. school has never been a safe haven, my house has always been, and now even this place is fucking destroyed

i literally want to die