friends...

my friends, i have four friends that i really trust and truly call my friends. THe rest of my friends...they only know me when they need something from me, they leave me as what i like to call 'last choice' ((people say: second choice)) but i say this 'cause all i get is shit. i talk to so many people but i hate the fact that i'll never be that friend that someone truly trusts and cares and doesn't only know you when they need something...

even the four friends, i don't think they like me that much, but i care so much about them, it sounds cheesy and you'll think i dont mean it but i do: i would take a bullet for them, i would risk my life for them cause i truly love them.

i don't care, all my 'friends' can walk all over me, but its worth it know that they notice me...sometimes...

fuck everyone...

just kidding love ya! <3

and and and i wish that friends didnt exist, maybe it would have saved me a lot of pain...lil' shit...sorry ignore that! my mind is getting all fucked so i'll leave this blog right here! i love you guys. i suck at writing and i might write some more tonight! ;)