So Sorry !!!

I'm so sorry i haven't been on or even writing

My boyfriend / love of my life passed away from liver cancer last month

so i haven't been in the mood to write love stories or even come on

i'm not sure when i will start writing again

i did give it a try but i just couldn't

Jake's best friend kayden has been helping me and i have been helping him and he's been helping me .

i feel out with my so called best friend lexi so my three year friendship is over

but i still have Garrett , Alex , alec , kayden , elly and ally

so i have friends , who are amazing and helpful well kinda

Garrett has been going through stuff as well , i'm trying to help him as much as i can

he's such an amazing friend to me so i hope i can help him as well

he lost his childhood friend Darrin (he was a good friend of mine as well) , he a really cool and amazing guy .

i would joke about with him like i do with Garrett

i remember Darrin said hi to me and i said hi back then Darrin (who is a lay back , care free guy) went all shy is was so cute and funny , Garrett wouldn't stop laughing so Garrett being himself decided to tease poor Darrin .

i miss Darrin and i miss Jake (R.I.P Darrin you lovely sweet and funny guy , R.I.P my handsome , sweet , loving boyfriend )

my two princes , Jake and Darrin

this is the last thing jake said to me ...
"i will love you to the stars and back . i will love you like my other hafe eternally bound <3"

i will always remember jake Jackson my love