Staying Afloat

So....things are still hard between me an my ex. The other night he was crying over the phone doubting himself for letting me go. I started to notice that things weren't really perfect between us in the first place. I was in denial, and he sucked it up and hid his own sadness. He was worried that I wouldn't be okay if he wasn't strong for me. I'm grateful that he was there, but he never...really TALKED me. About him, how he felt, and what he was keeping locked up for me...I finally saw him. Like SAW, SAW him...and I feel pretty good that he finally showed me that part of him.
I'm still a bit in love with him, but I'm being strong and...letting him go. He could never be happy with me, and he deserves someone better. On the side, we would never be really truly happy with each other. I need a boyfriend who will accept me as a guy, and he just needs a pretty good girl. One that makes him happy and feel safe to confide in. All I want is for him to be happy. Especially since he feels like a failure to me--which he never could be.
~Savery