Just Let Me Get This off My Chest (Introversion Baby!)

I had hoped you were different, you know. I had. I know you were trying to do the right thing by being straight up honest about it. But I just still... I don't know.

I know you must think me a hypocrite because of my history and honestly yes I am. But its because of what happened to me that I cannot go back to pretending that it didn't matter. That it was just a mistake. I am not going to do this shit anymore. No more. I will not compromise myself or my comfort zone just because I want you to stay. I have been here, so many times. I have hated myself more than I have loved another. I cannot be that again. I will never be that again.

But I had wanted this to work, so much. You were supposed to be different. Why did you turn out to be exactly the same as the others?