gah.

oh, fuck.

okay,
so i'm not usually the sleazy type.

but,
one time,
ONE FUCKING TIME,
i got drunk,
and i kissed him.
his name's nick.
we got together shortly after that.
we dated for about two weeks.
an extremely physical couple;
i should have seen it coming.
he broke up with me through a text message.

i was still hung up on him

i still am.
he's the guy that i've gone the farthest with,
the one that i fell for the hardest, the fastest.

i used to cut.
i told him about it on a fluke.
he freaked out and told one of my friends, who made me promise to stop.

now,
a month after we broke up,
i still want him.
he's telling me about how him and this other girl, brittany, are kinda sorta talking.
he wants her.

yeah

that hurts like fuck.

i feel like i'm gonna throw up.

and i've already broke my record.
one month and two weeks.
down the tubes.

FUCK.