Comeback Queen + Anyone Know?

Trigger Warning: Mentions of Suicide

Yo!!!

Back from the Mibba dead (sort of). No one probably remembers me since I mostly kept to myself, lol, and I religiously changed my user. But I used to write bandom fanfiction from 2013 - 2018(2019?). I got really depressed and, in the spur of the moment, deleted all my fanfiction since I had planned on killing myself and didn't want to forever abandon all my old unfinished work.

Welp, guess who's not dead? Lmao.

Anyway, I'm alive and still moderately unwell. I'm trying to get my act together, slowly but surely. I haven't written anything in years due to my declining mental health, but recently, I've had the urge to get back. Specifically, I want to get back into writing fan fiction again. When I stopped writing FF a few years ago, I was still sort of writing, just original fiction. And eventually, I stopped writing altogether. I always figured if I were to write FF again, it wouldn't be bandom anymore since the bands I write for don't have as much of an active fandom as it used to back when I was writing (2013-2015; All Time Low, Pierce the Veil, Sleeping with Sirens, Of Mice and Men, etc). That's why I stopped writing, really, because people weren't reading it as much anymore. I started writing for myself, not caring whether people read or not. And I would still write the fics I wanted to write, but over time, I cared that people read and commented. So when that fandom died down everywhere, I got unmotivated. :/

Recently, I've been recollecting my old fics. I regret deleting those fics now that I'm still alive, because I wrote a lot of things. Even when I wasn't writing, I had joy rereading them and going through the nostalgia of 13-year-old "me's" writing. But I was thinking about which stories out of the 30+ fics I had, which ones I would have tried to finish vs which ones I wouldn't have written. So I have the urge to rewrite one of them for myself this time.

Alright, to get to the point, lol. So I still partially regularly lurk on Mibba. Obviously, it's hard to find new things with the sitewide issues still going on. I can rely on "My Mibba" to see some users update, but it can only do so much. This brings me to the main question:

Does anyone know if Dujo's doing anything?

I can't tell if things on the site are getting worse or if he's slowly trying to fix things. I was trying to search for a story earlier. It used to be a pain because it wasn't showing the most recent fics. But now, it doesn't load anything. Even when you click on the "Stories" tab, it'll say "No results found. Try again." This has also been loading with the other tabs.

Has anyone else had this issue, or is this just me? Lol.

I know that either way, I should move on from this site since it's so dead. Even when I still read on Tumblr and Ao3, it's not the same as Mibba. Even when I think about writing again and posting it, Mibba is still my first site to post on, knowing that no one will read. I can't find it within myself to leave for good. I'm surprised that I still weekly/biweekly check on the site. But this site still means a lot to me. I joined when I was 13 years old. I made good friends here. I had my best work on here. I read the best stories here. In return, this site made me a better and more creative writer. I don't know when I'll say goodbye, but I hope it's not soon. I hope this site gets fixed.

Thanks for reading if you somehow come across this lmao. :)