I wonder if my life could have been something different.

I wonder if the sun was always up, if my life would be different.

I wonder if the seasons never changed, if my life would be different

I wonder if I was fearless, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I acted in another direction, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I said something else, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I had put myself out there, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I had a backbone, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I had stood up for myself, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I hadn't told the truth, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I didn't tell anybody, if my life would be different.

I wonder if they treated me in another way, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I acted like them, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I toned it down, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I hadn't helped adults, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I my mom was there for me a few years ago, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I didn't have to take care of my sister, if my life would be different.

I wonder if social services had taken us, if my life would be different.

I wonder if my parents had gotten divorced, if my life would be different.

I wonder if we didn't have to 'run away' to Florida, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I hadn't gotten in those car accidents, if my life would be different.

I wonder if I hadn't applied, if my life would be different.

I know that if I had ever once listened to them, I wouldn't have a life that could be different.