Scatter my ashes where they wont be found.

Sometimes I dont know.

A man bends down, he says, son we're gonna make it through this one. I scream please get the fuck away.

I hate living here. I hate how I'm always left out. Like all my friends go out and do shit together and Im sitting at home watching lord of the rings for fucking 10 and a half hours.

It's not normal.

I hate coming to school and feeling like no one there actually gives a shit. I hate it.
I hate it times infinity.

I hate how I feel like Im annoying as hell and I cant help it.
I want to feel like I belong and I never quite belong in one place.
I cant ever feel like Im in the right place. There's always this little doubt tugging at my sanity.

I wish I were someone else, but at the sametime I wouldnt give anything for me.
I just...
dont know.
I think I should disappear, just fade away.

Merry fucking chrismas.