good god...

omfg!!!!! i don't know why, but i went through and read my bf's old messages- and now i'm shaking uncontrollably.... i never thought it'd be so freakin' hard to read old messages about him likin someother girl... even when he's datin me now!god, i feel like i'm going to combust. i feel like some helpless loser that's centered her life around some guy.. but he's not just a guy!! i love him! we've done more together than i ever have done before(yes, i know what you all are thinking...)!! he's the guy that i never want to be without because he's just so.... PERFECT!!!
god, i need help...
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