Swept Away

This pit of longing and of dreadful lonliness. It's a sorry, sad feeling. I feel so lost and lonly and useless. The people who you thought were your friends are not really, you are forced to cut off from the world in order to obstain from any more pain that you may be feeling.

I have lost weight, suffered from panic and anxiety attacks, suffering an ulcer an insomnia, will it be worth it. I hope to God it is. I don't know how much more I can take.

I need a friend. I'm so sorry for what ever it was I did to you to make you do this to me, make me feel this way. No matter what everyone thinks or says about you now, I don't believe, because I truly think I knew you.

Please help me God.