My life is falling apart

My life is falling apart... My parents are fighting, my older brother is messed up, my mom is blaming my dad for my brothers problems... i can't stand it... my mom and i never get along any more... my dad is never home any more... my little brother has turned into a spoiled little bastard... i'm having trouble in my online high school... i don't know what to do... i really wish i could cut myself right now but i promised i wouldn't but it so tempting in this situation... my older brother is moving 'cause he can't clean up his act... my mom has become an over protective bitch... there's no one here to help me... i want to escape i want to get away from the drama, the problems, and have fun... i can never get a boyfriend even if i wanted to because it always ends in heartbreak and i'm afraid but i wish i had someone there for me... it feels like my whole world is crumbling down around me... and i have no clue what to do...

~Gracie