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THIS FUCKING SUCKS. GOD, I'M SO DAMN PISSED AT MYSELF. I FEEL SO STUPID, CHEAP, AND EASY. I FEEL LIKE A SLUT! WHY THE HELL MUST I LIKE TWO GREAT PEOPLE? WHY DOES ONE HAVE TO BE SO FAR AWAY? WHY MUST ONE RETURN MY FEELINGS LIKE I PRESSURED THEM INTO IT? AM I THAT DESPERATE? DO I WANT SOMEBODY TO BE WITH THAT FUCKING BADLY?

JESUS CHRIST, DE`SHARA, WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF? FIGURE YOUR GODDAMN SELF OUT ALREADY? "I LIKE ___. NO, I LIKE ___. NO, ____'S BETTER. NO ___'S NOT ____'S BETTER! I LIKE THEM BOTH!"

SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP!

Advice doesn't help... Other opinions don't matter... Then what does? Obviously not what I want because I DON'T FUCKING KNOW.