Another day... I'm not okay.

So I just woke up after getting to bed at 5.30am, having been up all night on the internet, angsty and depressed. I suppose today is a new day, but I'm still in a wretched mood. I want to make a new start; I'm so sick of starting over and over.

And so today is a clean slate. After I finish this episode of South Park, I'm going to work out, have a shower and get dressed. I got invited to go rock climbing with my boyfriend's friends this evening, but I'm afraid I'll still look trashed from yesterday, and that I'll suck at it, etc etc. I don't want to look bad, and I don't know if I should go: getting out of the house would be good for me, but I'm nervous about being around other people.

I still feel hopeless.