I've obviously ***ed up

By being strong willed
By being independent
By being self-sufficient
By not wanting anyone to get close enough to hurt me
I see girls with as much personality as dried leaves and faces of no greater appeal walking hand in hand with their boyfriend
Am I really that intimidating?
Do I really send of that lesbian vibe?
How did I offend the male half of the species?
Everyone’s always complaining how long and cold their ‘winter’ has been
(How long they‘ve been single)
And I have to point out that I hold the trump card
It never bothered me because it gave me more time for living in my head and finding out who I am and what will never change
But I’m pretty sure I know who I am alone now
Who am I when I have a companion?
Why is this hitting me so hard?
Just because I turned 18 I feel that I need someone?
This feeling has been nagging at me since around my birthday.
But nothing’s changed and another one of my birthdays is rushing toward me.
Maybe it comes from thinking about the fact that in the old days I’d be an old maid.
Hell I would have been an old maid years ago.
But this is now
Why does it bother me?
Maybe it’s the fact I haven’t been kissed in at least 2 years.
Now I’m a tragic case huh?
The world’s closing in and I’ve never felt so alone.

I’ll end on a laugh
I want someone Provocative and talkative
but it’s so hard when you’re shallow as a shower
♥
SuperCassie