Suffocating

Its back again, i fucking hate this feeling. i feel like i have to leave and get far away from everything i know. its fucking hell! not my life, but this feeling i get. because i feel trapped. last time i cured this by going to college . . .now i'm about a little less than halfway through college and i'm trapped. fuck. i need to leave, i need to do something, i need new friends, i need something anything to change. this is my fucking curse, my mother-fucking disease. i tried telling my friend about this feeling, but they interpret it as i'm sick of them, but its not true. i love my friends, but i going in-fucking-sane. i need to leave this place, either physically or my state of mind. or you know, i could get drunk, it gives me the illusion of change or doing something or whatever.

-fuck-