I'll just wish you away...

So I'm not really all that into dating right now. It's just right now I can't actually put 100% into it. And the arguments and shit. It's just too much and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of him. He's always mad at me yet I can't be mad at him. It's like he never actually listens to what I have to say. And well I guess I'm not ready for this. I really don't care to do this. And I'm the one who always ends up apologizing. I hate that he makes me feel bad for things that I shouldn't. What I hate the most is how he pretends everything is alright, like nothing happened. I just don't see this going anywhere. I just wish I could go back. I don't want to have to deal with my mom and my sister hounding me about him. I just want to pretend he doesn't exist. I just wish I guess that It'd all go away. I really had to get this out it's like no one listens to me. No one cares that I don't want this.