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First of all, I don't like people whining about their guyproblmes "what if he doesn't like me?" etc. they're problems but... you know.

anyway, I started dating this guy a few weeks ago and now... I can't stand this situation. The guy is nice and everything, there's nothing wrong with him. but me, I'm so stressed out for this! people should be happy when they have someone who cares, but me? no, I just have a panic attack. for real. I really don't like the idea of me being in a relationship. I don't trust people, I don't like being alone with people, I feel uncomfortable.

we don't spend much time together, because we're both really busy. but now, I don't even want to see him because I feel this big panic rising from me just for thinking it! and I know that when it's fall we won't see each other for weeks, maybe for months. I'm never around, I'm always somewhere else and I don't mean I'm with my friends. I'm in school, dancing, working, everything.

I don't want to be in this situation, I just want to run away and I feel like I can't breathe because I have to tell him about my life and he hasn't even asked for that. but how I can't breathe if I don't even see him? -.-

then there's the whole thing with me pretty much hating myself and stuff. I don't know if I should first learn to be with myself before I'm with someone else.

so should I wait or what? break up? because this is killing me! I really can't stand this situation right now. it's always on my mind and not in a good way and I'm just so sick of this!