New stories and other things

I am currently trying to throw my mind elsewhere because I have lost a good friend today. I am just so numb I can't explain. He was always there for me and now I feel like I can't be there for him. Well I never can be again since he is no longer one of the living. I am trying to deal with this the best way I can, by writing out all my emotions. I sound so terrible, and I am going to miss him so much. But my new story is about a best selling author that has sworn off love since her first love crushed her world. She writes books about girls that don't need men or have been broken by them. Then her first love calls her from a correction's facility. How will she react?
I can't even get into details I suck today I am sorry guys. This sucks so bad, I can't figure out how to change it and its killing me. Sorry for downing everybodys day but would you guys do a poet a favor and read my two newest poems I needed to let some anger out