Having To Wonder

Sometimes I really do wonder, am I bisexual? Or am I just curious? Or, dare I say it, am I just thinking I could be because even though there is a large proportion who hate it, the people who are are wonderful people and hundreds more think it's a cool thing? I don't know.

I definitely see nothing wrong with it. I wouldn't care if I was.

I have yet to see a girl I find very attractive. I suppose, growing up in a small town with girls who are very stereotypical and not all that nice to me didn't help.

I don't see the idea of a girl's body being much better than a guy's (although, I'm not all that fascinated by below the waist anyway! :P). But a guy's chest is so good-looking (unless it's hairy. Gross).

But thinking if I was to hold a girl's hand, I don't think it would be a bad thing. I'd be quite happy to, enjoy it if it was a relationship. I can't imagine myself kissing a girl (but a few months ago until my first kiss, I couldn't really see myself kissing or snogging a guy either), but if I did I think it would be nice.

But I'm so afraid I'm only saying it because I have friends who are and who are so open, and want to fit in, be a part of something "cool". I try to be open minded, but is this being open, trying to conform and fit in, really considering what I might be, or not giving a fuck about what anyone else thinks?