I don't deserve to be here

Mibba is a writing site, a place where you can make friends, a place where you can be yourself and find people like you.

So far I feel like I don't belong here anymore. I write or at least try to. I post it here thinking I'm the best fucking writer I can be, but I'm wrong. I can't write. I just think I can. I'm such a fucking idiot thinking I have that talent. I'm just ordinary.

For the past months that I've been here I have never made any friends. No I have friends but I don't deserve them. I don't even try to talk to them. I hide myself from them. I'm scared cause I'm not good enough for them...

God. I'm not even thinking right now of what I'm typing. I'm just so fucking mad at myself. I'm ordinary. I'm nothing. Everyone here and in the real world has something they can be proud about, everyone has someone to be with. I know I have friends but somehow I feel like I'm not there...

I can't explain what I'm feeling right now...

I don't deserve to be here anymore. I don't belong here anymore...
I'm sorry... I just.... Mibba doesn't feel like home anymore...