2008.07.08

I hate this.

This is supposed to be a vacation. This is supposed to be fun.

But it's not.

I'm sitting here miserable, anxiously waiting for us to go back home so I can talk to Josh about this whole breaking up thing. I'm so worried. I get raging jealous when I think of him dating other girls, but I get scared about the idea of begging him to take me back.

I don't want him to say no. =[

That would really break me, you know?

*sigh*

Well, on a happier note, I went shopping today. Found this store called Rue 21 and they had really good sales going on. I got four shirts, four pairs of sweatpants [three were capris] and a belt for $62 and then got some hair stuff at Claires for $10. And earlier I got a tennis racket for $80.

Spending money makes me happy... but not today. =[

*sigh*

And I'm tired of acting like I'm ok.

I'm not.

I'm not ok.

<3 steph