so, yesterday, the new Twilight book, Breaking Dawn, came out and me and my 2 frinds went to the party at the book store!!!!!! Every thing was good, until i saw him............my ex. he was with our friend, Ryan. I almost passed out when i saw him b/c when we broke up, it hurt..........alot, and it took like a month of crying and no sleep to realize, wut the hell am i doing??? Why the hell do i still care!!!!! and a few weeks ago, i finaly got over it, but when i saw him and he saw me almost in tears, he came over to me and tryed to say he was srry 4 wut he did to me. but, i ran off and tryed to stay away from him ALL night cuz i was to scared to talk to him. after a while, i thought he gave up and i walked by him and he tryed to say srry, but i ran away. my frinds were trying to tell me to talk to him, but i just kept running away. On the car ride over to my frinds house(sleep over) i decided to call him. when we got back, i called him and we talked about stuff but nothing realy happened. he ended up having to go so we hung up and i just started to listen to my iPod. my frind Jordan called him and asked him if he still liked me like that any more.......and he said no. i was devestated or how ever you spell it! i sat down and after a few minutes, i stared balling my eyes out.......and i happened to get eye-liner on my friends carpet!!!!! haha....but anyway, i cryed for like a 1/2 hour them my frinds took me down stairs to get some ice-cream to make me feel better............and it did!!!!!!!! we talked about different ways to kill him!!!!!! it was realy funny!!!!!!!(by the way, i would never kill anyone!!!!!!! srry if i scared you!!!!tehe) and we went up stairs and i layed down and feel asleep. the next moring, i woke in a good mood and i decided to call him and tell him how i felt about the whole thing. i told him everything!!!!!! how i felt about him, how i felt when he did wut he did and.......well, everything that i havent told him!!!!! and you want to know wut the motherfucker said!!!!!!!!!! after like 5 minutes of silence, he said.............."i gota go"!!!!!!!!!! THAT MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!! I JUST FUCKING TOLD HIM HOW I FELT AND HE CANT EVEN SAY ANYTHING BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! WUT THE FUCK?????????// and by him saying that..............i have now after like the LONGEST time, i have gotten over it. no more going back!!!!!! he doesnt even care!!!!! so i have moved on and im still looking for that right one who will make me feel good once more!!!!!!! hehe
love you all (hehe you to Sam!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahaha)
Caitlyn Elizabeth Vanover
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