i feel like all i do is make things worse, and the actions prove it.im almost done i think.i really am.i think about it more and more and its selfish but it eases much more pain in the long run.I love both a man and a woman. The man can be sweet and loving but also sadistic and cruel. He has a alot of problems medically though and i dont help with it or stress wise either. I just cause pain. The...

i think ive given up. im not wanted so why bother. all i am is someone to use to get things from. no one actually loves me, and those who say they do lie. actions speak louder than words.i am more hurt that i could even explain. been crying for 2 days straight, not that anyone around me cares that im in pain.i think ive lose the closest person to me over this, cause she was forced to chose and i...

Let's just say that im pretty messed up.Nothing too bad has happoned to me that i havnt deserved or brought upon myself, so im pretty much just a waste of sympathy.Lets start from the beginning.Im born. Father dies. I move in with grandparents who are sooo last century and give me no freedom.im fuckin fat as hell and hate myself and have no self esteem or worth so anyone who gives me attention i...

Really does not seem to be worth it. All i do is fucking give and give and get fuckin taken advantage of.I doubt anybody actually loves me, they just hang around because of what i can give them.The one person i love with all of my heart doesnt give me a second look, theyre too concerned with their own fucked up relationship to realize that maybe there was reason that we are so good together.But i...