I can proudly say that all my problems are now gone. I know that my best friend and love interest still loves me, which helps boosts my self-esteem as well as my need to wrote and edit. Yes, I'm gonna work my ass off on the computer whenever I can. I think I might start bringing it to school with me since I can't really do much in school. Well, I can write, I just can't update unless I wanna take...

I feel like I'm drowning, suffacteing. I think I'm fine and everything is for a moment, maybe even a day or more, and yet I find stuff that depresses me and makes me feel that I'm an idiot. Hell, it may be a misunderstanding, but it still hurts like hell. I wish he would see that and that I could tell him I cried for him. I don't know why I can't. Writing this though, I think I might. Not sure...