I just want to run, throw it away. I can't wait till I die. My friend is right. She said lately I've been depressed. New flash. I've been acting this way for the past year. I hate my life. I hate it. I hate it. I cant wait until I'm 18. I can just leave. I can do whatever the fuck I want. I don't have to be the perfect daughter or the perfect student or the perfect girlfriend or the perfect...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNeF5cgrpp8&NR=1 <-- This is my song right now. I love her but no one understands. We have plans together. There is a differences between having a crush with someone whom you think you love rather than loving someone with all your heart and dying when they're away. They're always on your mind even when you are in History with is very irrelevant. I don't think...

Last night, I tanned in a parking lot with my bestfriend & we screamed at everyone who walked by. "LIFE'S A BEACH!1!1!1" The best part was... we didn't even realize we were in a parking lot. Oh my. Hmph. I feel like my life is so boring. I went up to my best guy friend who just so happends to be my bestfriend's boyfriend & called him an ass. Lololol. I'm a bitch. He loves me though. I only...

Over my years of being alive, the only thing I learned about life is to never let anyone get too close & to only count on yourself.Once you let someone get close, you tend to rely on them. You care for them. You'd even die for them. Its a bunch of shit. They'll only hurt you because they KNOW they can. They fucking know what to say to hurt you. They'll make you want to fucking die. Lol. So...

Highlights of my lovely day:Woke up to 8 text messages that I sucked balls.1st Period. - Found out only one other person in my group finished the book assigned to us.2nd Period . - Did average on the stupid online test for math.3rd Period. - Algebra. Just learned our last lesson & the last time we'll have actual homework besides studying for final. Yey.4th Period. - History. Boring as fuck....

Here's a post on five things I love about myself & five things I don't.Dislikes:1.) My Jew nose because its ugly.2.) My body because I'm self-consiece.3.) My tiny fingers because they remind me of how I was supposed to be a really tiny person... and I wasn't even supposed to live.4.) My lips because they get really skinny when I smile so I try not to smile & I look ugly.5.) My eyebrows...

I'm listening to my favorite song at the moment. It upsets me and makes me happy. Yanno. I was supposed to sing it to my girlfriend on our 3 months but something came up. I'm thinking of making a youtube video singing or tumblr. I don't know yet. I feel like doing a journal post on my perfect imperfections.Or possibly some thing else. Yuck. my bedroom is hot. It wont post unless I have atleast 100...

I don't believe I have friends. I believe I have people I socialize with & that's about it. I talk to people all the time but I don't know. They aren't really friends. I can't call each & everyone of them up on a Saturday night asking if they want to go to the movies. I could call a few, I guess. I don't feel bad for myself because I could easily make friends but I don't really want to. I...

Things that upset me:When my girlfriend, who loves me oh-so-very-much, never even texts me but then flips fucking shit when I don't text her.Friends that want me to listen to their problems even though they won't listen to mine.Books where the main character takes everything for granted.A mom who told me that I can't talk to her about my relationships if it happends to be with a girl & doesn't...

This weekend has been utter shit. Clearly, I'm not in a very, shall we say, "good" mood. I feel as though my friends are fucking morons who only care about themselves, my girlfriend never talks to me, & people enjoy my pain. Oh, and I can't even talk to my mom about anything. Three day weekend has gone to waste even though its only Saturday night. Hmm. I should explain why I am feeling so...

Hello, lovely being. Today, I was thinking about what it would be like to post a journal every day. I feel like it would relieve stress and clear my thoughts a bit. Some days, I may have four or five journals about different ideas or anything in general while other days I may barely even post. No one needs to read these journals because they're pretty pointless, I guess. Maybe these journals will...