She lives in Louisiana. I live in Florida.
There's no possible way for me to be with her :/
And it's killing me because we're like twins.
I'd feel weird using a hotline.
Besides, if I did, my mother's abuse might come out.
Then they'd start asking me more questions, and... :/
My mom did that too. She kicked me out,
cursed me out in the car when she did it,
and then when I came home from school,
and she came home from work,
she said she "didn't mean it".
It's not even actual rules.
It's mind game rules.
If I don't obey the 'rules', I get left behind.
And she's always adding new ones.
Yeah, it majorly sucks because she'll die in 2-5 weeks :/
They can't do anything for her :/
No, I don't have any transportation.
I don't have any money for transportation.
And my mom would ask where I was.
I couldn't make up excuses.
Because she never lets me go out :/
Yeah, might have been :P
My mom is emotionally abusive and neglectful (?).
She used to be physically abusive to me but not anymore.
She plays mind games with me and fucks with my mind.
I hate having to learn the rules of the games :/
I wouldn't be able to. My mom wouldn't bring me :/
She doesn't know about Bill or my friend Aly [who's about to die of cancer].
She doesn't know that my stress is because of her.
She's abusive to me and so I can't ask her that :/
Besides I've been to therapy and I don't think it would help >.>
For my autism and stuff :P
It's much worse than you could imagine.
"Pull through it" might seem like good advice.
But it's not.
I can hardly even breathe, because I'm having anxiety attacks all the time :/
Hi. :] Thanks for the journal comment. And those were the same grades I got too. But I wanna get all A's too. Good luck with your new school though. :]