well honestly i have no clue any morewhy i still careor tryor wanthimit hurts meso muchcuz i knowi still love himeven after everything i still want himim never going to find anyoneno one will ever want meand i dont undersatand why ihave to livei hate crying over himi hate loving himand having himnot feel the same wayand yet i miss being with himkissing himhugging himi love himand idk how to get...