hey. its okay. no matter what. and for the what to do part...what ever feels right.. i guess.
ps. im always here to pay people to beat the shit out of others ^_^ jk. i could never do that. but i will defend you and stay next to you no matter what.
In response to your journal, I don't think people here, at least, would make fun of you.
Plus, you know at school we'd support you, no matter what. ^_^