Lately everthing I do....is starting to be fake to me....just today and yesterday...I realized it yesterday...I was fake laughing...I was not laughing...I smiled fake...I was not really smiling...I couldnt believe it...its like im dead again... everything i did was fake... i pretended that i was ok i pretended i was fine...i have been doing this all my life and the only time myself is when im with...