I Want

All the happy couples

The teddy bears and candies

huge cards that promise a kiss

and big pink hearts showing you love

It all makes me sick.

Because secretly I want it.

an overly cliche card

paired up with a huge pink bear

a box of chocolates in a heart shaped box

with mystery flavors inside

I want a rose in my locker at school

I want a big hug and an "I love you"

I want everyone to be sick at how sweet he is

I want to curl up after eating a meal he cooked

and watch a movie with a predictable plot line

I want to sigh and look in his eyes after sharing a sweet kiss

I don't want to cry and sit alone

just staring at a picture

hugging a stuffed animal and cuddling his hoodie

with mascara smudged

down my tear stained face

But apparently that's too much to ask

Here's to another year of pain

another Valentines day gone to waste