im sorry mum

im so sorry
i didnt meant to hurt you
i really am sorry
i wasnt going to
i didnt want to live any longer
its not a crime
but mabey its to late
no not this time
im sorry for this
i was clear
im sorry
dont come near
please dont hug me
i dont want to cry
but thats just it
and why i want to die
im sorry mum
i cut again
but it was dep this time
i think of it now and then
the blood poured
so did my tears
perfect scene
this is all i feared
im sorry
i thought id die
i felt dizzy
i didnt say bye
i felt dizzy
and dropped to the ground
im sorry i whispered
not much of a sound
my sobs took over
i cried in sorrow and pain
im really sorry
i must be insane
but im okay
im sorry though
it still hurts
but you dont know
im sorry
it was my worst day
i tired it again mum
but just know im sorry okay