If This Isn't Love.

He is the first thought i think about when i wake up,

the last thought i think about before i go to bed

and the only thought i have though out the day.

I get lost in your eyes and found trying to get to your heart.

Listen to only the songs that remind me of you.

I dial his number to scared to actually call it.

He is on instant messenger and I click on it to afraid to actually write to him.

I see him walk down the road and I can't help but watch.

When I am with you I feel safe.

I click on you page more than once or even twice a day.

I want you to hold me and never let me go.

I breathe in deeply when im in your arms hoping your sent never leaves me.

My smile has never been so real and my cries never hurt so much.

I cry because your not mine,

Yet I laugh when you stand next to me.

I get butterflies when you touch my hand.

And knots when I see you with any other girl.

I miss you even when you sit right next to me.

I play you voice in my head when I need comfort.

Your the only one I want around me.

I make myself sick over you.

I spend the day waiting for you to show up at my door.

I do my hair and cover myself in make-up thinking today could be the day you realize you

love me.

Hoping that one day I can be that girl you want.

Hoping that your the guy that is my first.

I don't even what to live somedays knowing you will never love me

the way that I love you. But,

I will do anything to make you love me.