Insecure

I feel like I am drowning me
In all my insecurities
I feel all locked up inside
And I have no peace of mind
I hate the way that we all hate
But even so I can relate
I hate the way that we all blame
When really we should shoulder shame
I hate the way that we all cry
When something goes awry
I feel like curling up in disgrace
When people wear anger on their face
I feel like I'm so disgusting
When someone's angry at me for nothing
I hate the way I feel like this
Like everything is amiss
I hate the way my feelings show
Clearer than any rainbow
I hate the way you always see
Everything inside of me
I always feel like it's all my fault
It's always like an assault
My heart is attacked with no mercy
And I wonder why is it me?
I always feel so insecure
I'm never too sure anymore
I want others to believe in me
But I'm also so scared for them to be
Counting on me or relying
Upon just the mere thought of me trying
To be all they expect
Just to gain their respect
I feel so horrible with bubbling guilt
I feel like I'd cause all flowers to wilt
I hate that I'm so self-conscious
I hate that I have no confidence
I hate how I hate so many things
But then again I really hate nothing
And I hate how this is similar to
"Ten Things I Hate About You"