I'm Pretending

So now darling, here we are, it's been so long
But we're not that far
Everything we ever said
Seems not to matter in the end
Because that's where we are, it's what we've got
Let's make this painful and pretend that it's not

Some things we said we can't take back
We can only fill in what we lack
If you try I just might buy
The words you have to spare

Wondering what happened
How this came to be
Leads me to a question
Do you need me?

Who's to say when we began to fall apart
Not to stand
We both can take the blame
Because we'll stay the same
We're both guilty, we've both been shot
Let's make this painful and pretend that it's not

A phone call placed when it's just right
An afternoon that feels like night
I don't want to see what we used to be
I don't think I care

Wondering what happened
How this came to be
Leads me to a question
Do you need me?

Screaming at you without sound, only because
You're not around
To see me falling out of touch
& missing you so much
I hope you know it's for you I've fought
You've made this painful but I'm pretending it's not

I must tell you dear I've loved our time
But now I'm afraid it's the last line
It's sink or swim from here on in
& we're running out of air