Confused Soldier

Running from the darkness behind

Only to run foreward blind

A war I fought and lost

I only wish I would have known the cost

Before I put my finger on the trigger

I should have stopped to think, go figure

My fingers feel numb from pulling so much

Oh how I wish I wouldn't have touched

Those innocent souls with the taintedbullets from my gun

Now I'm running away from the blood and hate

Away from the pain

Away from the agony

Thoughts flood my mind

Of how the lives I just took could have been mine

But I ignored the warnings, I ignored the signs

I was too self absorbed wanting to shine

And now many lives have been taken

Dammit, now I'm one of the participants in battle: foresaken