Heartbreak

Growing up a modest child, I took every day with a brillant smile
I loved my friends, my family too
Lived everyday,caring...loving...all so true
I was always bubbly,happy,giggling like a fool
Everyone like me...it was I who ruled the school

But the more you grow, the more you know
The good you think and feel and breathe....isn't always so
Sometimes you're good...sometimes you're bad
Sometimes life picks on you which makes you really sad

It starts off slow then picks up pace
And when you're done...you're full of hate
You hate the world...you hate yourself
You wish and pray for this to end

You find someone...someone to love?
A gift from the heavens? From up above
Although you try...you build your bonds
You try in vain...this is not love

You feel so hurt...you want to cry
The pain gets worse...you want to die
You trust no one, you love yourself
A minute comfort...your personal hell

The friends you keep...they fight you down
Their numbers diminish...you're down to one
You trust this one...she's special to you
Then you feel like an ass when she turns her back too
Your heart is broken...you're tender like a rose
Your pride is all thats left
Your heart,again,goes cold

You seal yourself...you're like a vault
There's pain and sorrow...there's no more love
You're all alone...you choose to be....no one deserves to be with me

The line is cast...you take the bait
You find someone...you think he's great
Your heart is warm....it beats again
You want this bad...but you're just friends
You're on cloud nine...floating like a child
From Sunday to Sunday he's there on your mind
But lo and behold...you've been replaced
Someone more worthy of his precious gaze

You cannot breathe...you loose your breath
You feel as though you're close to death
You try to ignore...it hurts you more
Like you're standing there waiting...and he closes the door

What the pain islike...you cannot explain
You tell yourself it can't happen again
You're mad like hell...you want to scream
To kill...to hurt...to make him bleed

You try your best but get your worst
You lost everything this time...your heart,your zeal...your worth

What would you do if this were you?
You're all alone, no one to turn to
You'd stand up tall or stumble and fall
When life has you stuck against a wall

Whatever you choose...I really wish you luck
'Cause welcome to my world...and yes...it does suck...