Drawing You Blank

I thought about it for some time,
I had no quater so I flipped a dime.
I paced to and fro,
Wondering how our friendship had gotten so low.
I took your picture and put it in the shredder,
Hoping that would make things better.
You said you wanted "space,"
So I said I didn't want to see your face.
I remembered all the time we spent,
Or was that just the time you lent?
Was our friendship real?
You need to tell me so I can heal.
This is what you need to hear,
Breaking our friendship was my fear.

You breathed me inside-out,
Judging me, no doubt.
I would sit and pretend like you cared,
All the secrets that we had shared.
Looking back now I have to think,
Was I the paper you bled through like ink?
Your actions are not something I want to thank,
Like an artist, I'm drawing you blank.

I stood in the back of the group,
I was the one always out of the loop.
I used to act like I knew,
But now I just see right through you.
All those fake tears that you cried,
All those things that you lied.
Sometimes I want to say you I miss,
But then I would say you made me bliss.
This is what you need to know,
So this time, I'll take it real slow.

You breathed me inside-out,
Judging me, no doubt.
I would sit and pretend like you cared,
All the secrets that we had shared.
Looking back now I have to think,
Was I the paper you bled through like ink?
Your actions are not something I want to thank,
Like an artist, I'm drawing you blank.