wondering mind

colors,
colors,
all i can see is colors
wishing,
washing
falling
gnawing,
they fill my mind
the break the bind
of my perfect sanity
and my stuttered vanity

beat!
beat!
i can feel the heat!
of my gagged pulse
my feelings false
thump
bump
crump
stump
here it in my ears
it annoys me to tears
brings my fears
but no one cares

love,
love
what is love
is it the devil?
or the white dove?
dose i come from below or above?
sweet
greet
swish
wind
tears
fears
binds us together
tears us apart
can meant or crush
a broken heart

fear
fear
why do i care?
the thing is i don't
cuz you wont
show me grace
not even to my face
now i shall try
to say goodbye...
but is this what i need?
and will i succeed?