Curtains

Hiding behind these curtains that were never there
Knowing that you never really cared
Dad do you know how much you make me sad?

Gone six years
You come back thinking all is fair

You tell me you want to see me
That you really love me
That you’ve always cared

How stupid I was to believe you
To think you’ve ever changed

You only care about possessions
And your silly obsessions

Your booze
And your crocodile tears

They mean nothing now
They only remind me of your stupid lies

How naive was I to ever believe
That you’ve ever really cared?

To you I’m just like one of your so called friends
You remember them?
The ones with benefits!
The ones you’ve always used

News flash Dad
Your best friends are only there for the beer!

You point at me and tell me that I was bad
You tell me I should never talk back to my dad

You accuse me of doing drugs, something I’ve never, EVER, done
Because I’m LAUGHING with my friends
Is it against the law to laugh?
Well I sure as hell didn’t know that

You forget the important day’s
The days that mean the most
Remember my fifteenth birthday?
I do, and you weren’t there
You gave me money
No card
No call
No Happy Birthday Sweet Heart
No sentimental at all
That day you proved to me that you really didn’t care

You never call
You told me you’d be there

And I believed you
I actually thought you were telling the truth
That you really cared

How stupid was I then
To believe that you’d ever change?

You threaten me
And accuse me
You mentally abuse me

I tried to hold the pieces together
Instead I continued to grow sadder

You never understood
You never knew
How every time I came down
I only wanted to go home
Or go visit my friends

I tried to be there
To prove that I really cared

I really wanted to get to know my father again
I only ended up hating him
Hating him more then ever before

Dad, you never understand
You never really cared
You lied when you said you’d be there
You lied when you told me you cared

You always tell me you’d do any thing for my sister and I
And I believed it
I believed you really cared

You threaten me
And accuse me
You mentally abuse me

You don’t feed us
You tell us to wait
You tell us be good

You point
And you stare
You glower and glare
You tell nothing but lies

You tell me I’m too young for the truth
I tell you I’m older than I look

You don’t know what I know
Or who I am
Who I’ve been
Who I want to be
You know NOTHING
Nothing about me
Nothing about my life

You say I can’t handle the truth
The truth of why you left

You don’t pay enough attention to know that I already know
I called the cops when you were in your drunken state
You scared me
You Pushed me
You hurt my Mother
and tore me apart inside

You used to be my role model
Now you’re just an ass

My mom told me everything
The truth of the past
Everyone else told me the same

You tore apart my home
Nearly blew it up

You tell me I don’t understand
That there are two sides to every story

I already knew that

You never trusted me
You never really cared

I have two brothers
Two that I never knew about
You really got around didn’t you?

You didn’t care enough to stick around for them did you?
You left them before they were born
Too fend for themselves

I found this out my self
And asked you why?

You stared at me in horror
Wondering how I even knew
Then you tried to tell me it was all a lie

I already knew
I knew they were real
I knew they were MUCH older than me
Thirty by guess

You tell me that lying is bad
that it gives you a one way ticket to hell

You lie all the time
Guess your fate's set

You threaten me
And accuse me
You mentally abuse me

You don’t feed us
You tell us to wait
You tell us be good

You point
And you stare
You glower and glare
You tell nothing but lies

You’re just a big hypocrite
Drowning in your numerous lies

You don’t give a crap
You never did

You scream
And you yell
You make this stupid face

You make my life hell!

You introduced me to a guy
Just about my age
He was nice and funny
Cute and had his own dream

I hang out with him at the pool
Then you forbid me
Tell me that he’s bad

You make a scene
Get people to follow me

What was the point of even introducing me
at the fire that one night?

I’ve never really thought of rebelling at home
Of breaking the rules
I’ve always been one to listen

It’s when I see you that I change
I go nuts
I break the rules
I don’t listen
It’s because of people like you that we teens rebel

Do you know how sad I am?
Knowing that you don’t care
Knowing that every time you say you love me it’s just another worthless lie
I’m your daughter with benefits nothing more
A toy
A possession
One of your obsessions
Your booze is what’s important
We don’t mean a thing
Glad to know you care Dad
That you need me there.

I’m hiding behind these curtains that were never there
Knowing that you never really cared
Dad I hope you enjoyed making me SAD because now you’re really making me MAD!