Pain

I feel this pain,
This pain inside.
It breaks forth,
But never leaves me.
It hurts
And It feels like I am dying.

Do you feel this pain, too, when you look at my face?
Do you feel your heart sink?
Because that’s how I feel.
Do you choke on your words?
Can you feel this misery?
It lives in my heart,
Right before your name.

Because your name is written in the back of my heart.
It’s like a scar.
It won’t disappear.

You won’t disappear.

I’ll never be able to forget you.

You’re my everything.

My Sun.

My Life.

And my death.

’Cause it slowly kills me.
Just to see your gorgeous face,
When you talk about your love.
And your love is not for me.

It’ for her.

Your smile.

Your heart.

You have given it to her.

I wish I could hate you.
Hate you so much.
That I would avenge everything.
Everything that you had done to me.

But I am too weak.
Because when you look at me.

This hatred fades away.

And nothing remains.

Just the emptiness.

And the killing pain.

This fucking pain.