Isn't That How The Story Went?

Well, I refuse to let this go
It's a siren in the window top
Small dreams I had encountered
You just cram it all in my mind,
So I don't dare
Even try to erase you
As I lay with an
Indescribable body

I know you understand
What I've done,
But I don't care
Coz you'll let it slide
As you've always done
When I'm with just another boy
And toss him out,
You'll always be there
Waiting for a chance
To be another boy,
Though you've been mine all along
I just can't rid of you

Well, I haven't seen you around lately,
You said you'd kill yourself
Just to warn me of my good times
You push it forward,
So I'm unable to run
And another muscled mayhem
Leaves as another pin down

I know you understand
What I've done,
But I don't care
Coz you'll let it slide
As you've always done
When I'm with just another boy
And toss him out,
You'll always be there
Waiting for a chance
To be another boy,
Though you've been mine all along
I just can't rid of you

Well, I've counted them up
And decided to round them down
Coz I'm just too embarrased
Of all the notches left alone
It's only been three days
Since you've left
And I don't feel a thing

I know you understand
What I've done,
But I don't care
Coz you'll let it slide
As you've always done
When I'm with just another boy
And toss him out,
You'll always be there
Waiting for a chance
To be another boy,
Though you've been mine all along
I just can't rid of you

Well, I might smile at you
Just to lead you on
Like I did in the school halls;
We were born between ballet shows
As you asked me to the diner
I knew I won me a good one,
But I'll keep all of my boys in the sheets

Oh, Honey,
You won't linger to the trigger;
I don't want to die,
But I wish you were here
I've lost so much;
I can't stand two friends,
But I've seen two die,
My grandomthers are dead
And my father wishes I was no more
And his crooked teeth yelled
To a lonely days mother, of course
I miss it all too much
And I wish you would have stayed,
But I know you had no reason,
I had my back-up plans
And I had my first choice,
Niether were you,
It was just a fire

I know you understand
What I've done,
But I don't care
Coz you'll let it slide
As you've always done
When I'm with just another boy
And toss him out,
You'll always be there
Waiting for a chance
To be another boy,
Though you've been mine all along
I just can't rid of you

Well, sometimes I think you will,
But I know you won't,
Just because you ended up hating me
I don't blame for a second
I know how it feels
It's just the hundreth time for me
To betray your trust
And get another round

I know you understand
What I've done,
But I don't care
coz you'll elet it slide
As you've always done
When I'm with just another boy
And toss him out,
You'll always be there
Waiting for a chance
To be another boy,
Though you've been mine all along
I just can't rid of you